Words unspoken

I went for a final walk with my friend today,
and tried to say “Good bye”. Β© Copyright Chris Reynolds and licensed for reuse under this Creative Commons Licence
We spoke at length on our two hour walk,
and yet so much was left unsaid.

She and her husband are leaving their home,
and three of their children,
to go to Dublin with their young son,
for a long awaited bone marrow transplant.
They will be gone for up to three months.

As we walked along, chatting non stop as usual,
on a glorious sunny morning,
we tried to act normal.

But what is normal in this situation?

We spoke of the accommodation,
the procedure, the side effects,
and the return home.
Of consultants, nurses, friends and good wishes,
prayers and expectations.
We laughed as we always did,
and joked about nothing in particular.

Then just for one moment,
it all became too much.
Not for my friend who is so very strong,
but for me.
I felt overwhelmed by all she had ahead of her,
and how much I would miss our walks together.

I struggled and bit my tongue,
looked around and tried frantically to think of other things.
But I was not as strong as her,
my mental diversion failed miserably,
and I could not help those silent tears from falling.

As we walked on looking forward,
I battled for control.
Self indulgent hot tears streaming down my face.

For a few minutes I thought my friend was fooled,
and perhaps was not aware of my weakness.
Then suddenly mid sentence she turned to me,
and reached across to wipe my tears.

In that moment,images
on that isolated country walk,
under the bluest of skies,
we hugged each other tightly,
silently sharing without words,
all that we could not say.

Then the moment passed,
and off we went.
Two friends chatting non stop,
on a walk under the bluest of skies.
Two friends who in that moment,
had said all they needed to say.

Β© Copyright Chris Reynolds and licensed for reuse under this Creative Commons Licence

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50 thoughts on “Words unspoken

    1. Jesus Don I am in shock. A non smart comment!
      Thanks a million. I did hesitate before I published but at the moment her situation is all consuming for us.
      My brother will be delighted to know he has a staring role in your other top choice!
      Thanks again your comment on this particular piece means a lot to me.

  1. I don’t think your tears were self indulgent. I think they were tears full of everything you and your friend couldn’t say. And they were tears of unspoken words. Well wishes and thoughts for your friends, may all be well in their world.

    1. Thank you. It is hard not to see my tears as self indulgent when you see how amazing she and her husband are, not to mention their handsome son.
      Next week Wed 17 th a girl from the US will donate bone marrow which will be sent to Ireland, and on Friday 19th he will receive it and hopefully get a full life back once more!

      1. I think, being in your friend’s shoes, I would be amazed at the depth of love and hope and prayers my friends were giving me. Maybe your tears are fuel for her strength. I do pray for your young friend. I look forward to hearing how he is.

    1. πŸ™‚ We have shed a few tears ourselves over the past seven months. Hopefully these are among our last! Thank you for stopping by.

  2. I had to dry my eyes as I read your post. You have every right to shed tears, Chatter Master is right, sometimes the tears we shed for our friends are the ones that they can’t shed themselves because they are so numb.
    May you live a long life
    Full of gladness and health,
    With a pocket full of gold
    As the least of you wealth.
    May the dreams you hold dearest,
    Be those which come true,
    The kindness you spread,
    Keep returning to you.

    Sending prayers for your friend and her son.

      1. I wish I could take credit for the poem, but I found it on a website for Irish Blessings. Unfortunately, there wasn’t an author listed. I hope your friends trip is going well and her little one is doing good.

        1. Doesn’t matter the source it was lovely and I know now she is trapped in a room in Dublin my friend will read it.
          He is doing well and hopefully this day next week will be the beginning of a new life!

  3. oh, so beautiful. Now I have tears spilling over…

    I’m sending my prayers for healing with grace for your friend’s son, and for the whole family. I can imagine that your friend appreciated you being your authentic self, and not pretending that this is some insignificant event, or that you’re not feeling anything…I know that as I talked with friends during my daughter’s cancer treatment, I did not want superficial or artificial responses, nor did I want sympathy or pity, but true compassion and love, humor, and authenticity with awareness, which is exactly what you offer to her. She is lucky to have you as a friend!

    1. Thank you. As we say at last they are going up for what is hopefully the cure. The odds are hugely in their favour. So hopefully this is the beginning of the end of the nightmare they are in.

  4. B*gger – I’m reading this at work

    Luckily no one else is in yet to see the tears ! 😳

    A deeply emotional post, tric

    Hope all goes well for your friend’s son and that there are many happy days to come !

    1. You old softie! Hopefully all will go great. Whilst we have cried we do not do it often.
      All fingers and toes crossed in anticipation of the fantastic partying that will take place when they return. Science is truly amazing!

  5. You are growing every day. As a writer, a mother, a friend, a wife, a person, a woman. Well done. I also send a healing hug to your friend and hope the transplant works.

    1. Thank you. This blogging has definitely greatly improved my writing. Thank you for the good wishes for my friend. It will be so great to have her son back well. There is something so wrong in seeing a young child so sick. I will pass on your healing hug.

    1. Thank you so much. They have arrived in the hospital so as she says herself one day down! She will appreciate your prayers thank you.

  6. Amazing poem and so very true. When you are with your closest friends you rarely need a lot of words to communicate. Your friend and her family are in my thoughts and prayers with best wishes and positive thoughts for an effective procedure and fast healing! xx

    1. Thank you so much. They are on day two. All waiting for the big day next week and a big thank you to his young fantastic US girl who is donating next Wednesday.

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