Are you someone who lives with regret?
Maybe it’s an old regret,
perhaps about your childhood, or schooling, loves lost, or chances wasted?
I have regrets aplenty.
But if I were honest and could go back, would I do things differently?
The past brought me to where I am today.
Am I happy with that?
In the past few weeks I have found I am appreciating life so much.
Every breath, laugh, smile, hug.
What has brought on this heightened awareness of life?
Am I living in denial?
I am enjoying every moment of every day, because I realise how lucky I am.
All over the country there are people who this New Year face uncertainty.
They have found a lump.
They are awaiting test results.
They have lost a lot of weight.
They are feeling unwell.
These people, their partners, parents or children face a different future.
For them life is no longer a certainty.
For them a clock can be heard ticking.
As far as I know for myself and my family we have so much ahead.
The year is full of promise.
Each day packed with empty minutes and hours.
What I fill them with is my choice.
How much I enjoy and appreciate them is also up to me.
As I settle to sleep each night I usually think back on the day.
What it brought and how I spent it.
However in the past few weeks there has been a slight change to my night time reflections.
As I enter my kitchen to turn off the lights,
I am drawn each night to a photograph.
A smiling, bright, handsome young boy, with a wicked glint in his eye, smiles out at me.
A boy who lived life to the full,
and filled every moment of his twelve short good years, with fun, mischief, sport and laughter.
As I look at him,
sometimes with a smile and sometimes through tears,
I am taken by how full of life and vibrant he is in that photo.
And I am taken aback that for him there are no more days of fun and laughter,
no more tomorrows.
And I am once again inspired by this amazing child, who fought so hard to live.
I smile and in my heart I speak to him, “I’ll do my best Dan, I’ll do my best”.
Today is the tomorrow I was thinking of last night and I remember my promise.
No regrets. Don’t waste a minute.