As We Wait And We Cry.

I cannot write,
I cannot think.
Everything has changed.
As we wait and we cry.

Life for others rushes on,
But for us it stands still.
As we wait, and we cry.
Kids look to be fed,
and homework completed.
As we wait and we cry.

People talk to us, but we hear nothing.
Minds elsewhere.
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A few short days ago we celebrated,
a young boy kicking cancer to touch.
Today… we wait and we cry.

As we celebrated,
an infection was lurking.
Our young friend was quickly overwhelmed.
Now we wait and we cry.

We see him in our minds eye,
many miles from home,
lying close to the edge.
As we wait and we cry.
We try but fail to imagine his mum and dad,
the hopes and dreams,
they continue to battle to hold onto.
As we wait and we cry.

We watch his siblings make their way,
on the sad and difficult journey,
to see him once more,
As we wait and we cry.

Candles are lit in our heart,
A special one burning brightly,
for our young battler.
We see it flicker,
as we wait and we cry.

Yet we still hope.

In our hearts,
we make the journey to his bedside,
to sit quietly beside him.
As we wait and we cry.
We gently hold his hand,
and touch his cheek,
and will him well.
As we wait and we cry.

We will not give up.
Standing tall,
we assure him he is not alone.
As we wait and we cry.
We fight along side him,
with all the fury we possess.
It is the most we can do.
As we wait and we cry.

Our little hero,
we are by your side,
holding our breath for you.
As we wait and we cry.

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49 thoughts on “As We Wait And We Cry.

    1. Agreed. Sadly he has beaten cancer, but an infection is threatening his life. It is difficult to describe the pain felt by all, and impossible to imagine the feelings of my friend, the mother of this beautiful boy. The shattered dreams of his dad. But as I say we are still hoping.

  1. Tric, so very sorry that this little hero is going through so much. I felt your anguish, and my tears are falling for him and his family. Sending lots of prayers that he will pull through.

        1. Thanks Don. Just when I think I am out of tears, they flow again. I am off to Dublin tomorrow to see him for the first time in over two months as he has been in isolation. Ironically now that he is in Intensive Care, we can visit.. I cannot wait to sit with him once more and stand by my friend, but then how do I leave on Tuesday! Life can be so cruel and unfair, but I hope, because without hope I do not know how we would even breath. Smile with your little ones today and feel lucky.

        2. It’s great perspective as I honestly almost murdered G$ today. He lives to see another day though, and for that I am grateful. I know the boy will be happy to see his friends. Try not to be a blubbering mess when you visit, though I would be myself.

        3. Being a born liar has it’s uses. I will be eligible for an Oscar, such will be the quality of my acting as i go to see my little friend. Plenty of time for tears before and after. It’s not about me. Thanks Don.

    1. Thank you. I am off to see my friend and little hero tomorrow. It fills me with great excitement but I travel with a heavy heart. Words cannot describe this kind of sadness.

        1. It is good to know you understand. I cannot describe our thoughts as they roller coaster between fear, hope, sadness and devastation, to name only a few.

  2. Giant hugs and positive thoughts to you and your friends and family. Cancer does suck, but I love that you said that with life there is hope. I truly believe that. As you have lit a candle or more for me, I will pray for you…

    1. Yes we still have hope thank goodness. And we are happy to not look further than here and now. Thanks a million for your kind thoughts, I would love if you lit a candle, (even at home) as I love the thought of it’s light shining for my small friend.
      Thanks again.

  3. so sorry to hear of this set-back, tric

    prayers from me would be of little value – but tell your friend there is one in Birmingham who wishes her son a speedy recovery

    1. Aw thank you Duncan. Like you I have no faith but I do have faith in medicine and he is still really trying as are his team. Today is such a sad day. Going up to see my friend in theses circumstances is so very hard. Whilst I ache to see her and my small friend it will also mean leaving them in two days. I’m all cried out.. and then I cry some more!

    2. Aw thank you Duncan. Like you I have no faith but I do have faith in medicine and he is still really trying as are his team. Today is such a sad day. Going up to see my friend in theses circumstances is so very hard. Whilst I ache to see her and my small friend it will also mean leaving them in two days. I’m all cried out.. and then I cry some more!

    1. Thanks so much. Positive thoughts can only be of help. I am so furious in my heart if that could fight off this infection he’d be home tomorrow! Thanks again and I hope your situation is okay.

    2. Thanks so much. Positive thoughts can only be helpful. I feel such fury in my heart, if that were enough to see off this infection he’d be home tomorrow!
      I hope your situation is okay.

      1. I understand the fury. I do. I am sure there are positive thoughts flowing all around him every moment.

        And thank you, our situation has hopeful moments these last 24 hours. No answers yet. But hopeful.

  4. It is not what life does to you, it is how you handle it. No one is unscathed for rose gardens are few and far between. However your heart is in your wonderful words and that energy binds you all together when you need to be and supports your young friend. Therefore you do have “faith” in your own way. We lost seven of our dearly loved in one year. “When you are going through
    hell, keep going.” He knows the love and so shall you. Bless his journey and yours.

  5. Hello Tric, if I may call you Tric…I’m Rose and it’s the first time I’m reading your blog. I was reading a friends blog and came across one of your comments, and I decided to take a look at your page. It’s beautiful!!! Your writing is beautiful, clear, smooth, and it reflects a lot of what I think and can’t write or say. This particular text, put me to tears. I’m right now, fighting this horrible feeling of losing someone, or better not been able to help someone who is dying of cancer. I’m so devasted, frustated, and feeling hopeless. I’m mad, sad and not knowing how to move in order to help someone in desperation. How do you deal with death been in the corner…just waiting to touch you??? How do talk to someone that might not have tomorrow, next week, next year????? How do you show how much that person is/was, will always be important to you??? How, I ask??? When I lost my dad at age 14, also to cancer, I was young and immature and didn’t realize HOW MUCH I was going to miss him. I also didn’t realize HOW MUCH my mom suffered through out the years because he wasn’t there. Now, life is bringing back memories that I had forgotten for a while. However, this memories feel a lot more real, and they hurt a lot more than 30 something years ago. So, I just wait and cry…thx for your posts..they are beautiful….Rose

    1. Death is so sad but such a special time if we are given warning of its coming. I remember my Dad saying it was easier for him to die than for us to watch and look after him. In a way I agree. He seemed to accept it more than we could.
      I remember a friend of mine dying at 39 years leaving a husband and three children. It was heartbreaking. I wrote the letters she dictated to her children for after she died. i cried so much during that time, but it was so amazing to be able to help her at such a hard time. Stay strong and be a good friend or relation you have a lifetime to grieve after. That is always the way I looked at it.
      It was lovely to make contact with you. Thanks for calling by. I’m glad you enjoyed reading. I wish you strength for your days ahead.

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