Results!

I feel unwell.photo credit: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/cellardoorfilms/7620375382/">cellar_door_films</a> via <a href="http://photopin.com">photopin</a> <a href="http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-nc-sa/2.0/">cc</a>
I am not physically sick,
but my body is full of imaginings.

My heart is racing,
my stomach is upset,
and I have a blinding headache.

Up to a few minutes ago I was okay.
I was feeling happy,
and even a little relieved.

Then my big strong son,
who will always be my small boy,
turned to me,
and said “I’m off”.
He hugged me uncharacteristically tightly,
and left.

He is going to his school,
to receive his leaving Cert results.
The end of fourteen years of formal education.

For myself and my husband,
the results are irrelevant.
Our son struggled for years with severe dyslexia.
School was very difficult,
compounded by the fact he was a lot more clever,
than the books he could read.
Many frustrating days have passed,
but in the end,
with the help of so many amazing teachers,
who went way beyond their job description,
he has come through,
studying most subjects at the highest level.

So today as I sit here,
sick,
my mobile phone in my hand,,
awaiting his phone call,
I hope he gets what he deserves.photo credit: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/liloueve/7907673476/">Clapagaré ! (Les chiquitos)</a> via <a href="http://photopin.com">photopin</a> <a href="http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-nc-sa/2.0/">cc</a>

For myself and my husband,
we already have in him,
everything we could want.
Regardless of results,
I could not be more proud,
of my big strong son,
my small boy!

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photo credit: Clapagaré ! (Les chiquitos) via photopin cc


32 thoughts on “Results!

  1. I know exactly how you are feeling. My son struggled with school but it wasn’t until he left that we discovered he has dyspraxia which has now made sense of all the things he struggled with… and probably always will. However, he is the most loving son I could ever have hoped for and has just started an apprenticeship in his dream job, because someone else decided to take a chance on him, have faith in him like I always have. So I wish your son the very best for his future and I know how proud you are of him, regardless of what those papers say.

    1. Thank you. I am delighted for your son. I hope he gets on great. My son has done really well and has enough points to go to Uni to do the course he wants. We are delighted for him.

      1. Thank you for your kind comments. I am so glad your son can go on to Uni and I hope he gets lots of support. Congratulations to him and all good wishes for his future 🙂

    1. Ha ha. I’m not too sure about that! Thanks Don he has done very well and got enough to go onto do what he wants in Uni. I see a future lonely post coming up in the not too distant future. Go hug your little ones and be glad they are little!

  2. i know it is such a bittersweet moment, having each of my girls leave home in their own time, and having gone through school in their own ways, and heading off into the world to grow and live, life is a wonder ) beth

        1. Thanks a million. It was a great day, and he returned safe from his night of celebration. I’m not sure which was the most stressful. 🙂

  3. Congratulations to your son, and to all who worked so diligently to make sure his brightness and intelligence was recognized as the important factor. Kudos and happy days! (and yes some low moments for mom when he goes away to school….).

    1. Thanks a million. Yes it will be difficult to say Good bye but today is a really good day. There were times I thought this day would never come. You are correct though we were lucky to find amazing teachers. And it was in a non fee paying school!

  4. Congrats to your son, tric

    Must be a proud and happy moment for you and your man, albeit tinged with a little sadness at the prospect of him going off to Uni

    1. It is a great day. With a result I admit at times I would never have imagined. Can you imagine my weepy waily posts when he packs up and goes!!

    1. Oh dear. That is tough. Isn’t it so difficult to let go? I know your situation is very different and a lot more heartbreaking, but I mean letting go as in allowing them to become mature.
      I hope you are okay. The sooner all your firsts end the better. Then maybe in time you will have new firsts with your son.
      He must have no doubt how much you love him. It is so evident in your writing.

      1. They all have to grow up some time, don’t they?? lol Our job as parents is to teach them to be independent, so they can be productive members of society, but when they start going out in the world without us, it makes us anxious. Such a Catch-22.

  5. I, too, have a smart son who does not test to his capacity. And I’ve come to peace with it. Moments of peace. The other ones? I’m sweating it out with you:)

    1. Ha ha. That is exactly how it is. Yes It was a hard road. Especially as he was so bright just couldn’t read. Thankfully the worst is over as college is a lot easier than school.
      My youngest is also dyslexic so I get to go through it all again! Although I have learned a lot on my first way round which should make this easier.

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