Ever look at you blog and wonder why you bother?
No me neither.
It’s two and a half years since I began to blog. I have loved writing every post and this blog is now my diary. My thoughts are here, often in their rawest form. There are days when I am working, or even the occasional moments when I do housework, and I dream of blogging. Yes without doubt I am now a blog addict.
So where to from here?
It has become clear to me that I have no interest in expanding my blog by working on seo or other important blog things like I should. Just like in real life I am a minimalist. I like to put as little effort into everything as possible. I see other bloggers getting big views and becoming better known and a part of me cries, (and a part of me bitches) but really I shouldn’t be jealous, for my blog is doing exactly what I am asking of it.
Some of you may remember I completed a creative writing course last year (well all but the very last module) and I loved it. It was with fish publishing. The feedback I got was worth it’s weight in gold and my kind mentor taught me so much. The biggest lesson I learned however, was not about point of view, perspective or show don’t tell, no it was a much simpler lesson, I love writing. Here on my blog I write reality, but when I was doing my course I was writing stories and how I loved the experience.
Every couple of weeks an email would arrive with the details of the module within it, along with relevant stories showing how it looks when the topic is done well. I would look and wonder, how was I going to do what was asked? Sometimes I’d think that it was an uninteresting topic, or I’d no idea how to begin. I’d close my laptop and go away daunted or disappointed.
Then slowly I’d find myself becoming consumed. A thought would occur to me, usually out of the blue. I’d begin to wonder was this something I could make into a story? Over days I’d become more and more obsessed with the story until I had to drop everything to let it out. Finishing it always left me with a great feeling of satisfaction.
Then I’d leave it there, and sure enough over a few days I’d begin to doubt what I’d written. Was it any good? Did it make sense? Did I fall into traps I wasn’t even aware of in my writing? By the time I’d press send I’d be a mix of embarrassed and nervous by my story.
Thankfully the feedback when it arrived was always very positive, even when it was not.
Since then I’ve joined an online writing group, called Imagine, write, inspire. It is mentored by Carmel Harrington who has two books under her belt (Beyond Graces rainbow, and The life you left, both great reads) and another two soon to be published. She has been hugely generous of her time and I’ve found the group a great place to bounce off ideas, dust off stories, listen and learn with like minded individuals. Since joining I’ve had the courage to send off two stories to competitions, one was longlisted, the other is not to be decided on until September, so it’s still a maybe.
Come September my youngest is off to secondary school which means that for the first time in nineteen years I will be free from 9am until 4.15pm. I am thinking, surely I’ll have time to write? So my plan for the future is, to continue to write short stories and flash fiction, perhaps do another course and wait for it… continue to write my book.
Yes I have begun a book. I’ve only written the first chapter and already I’m full of doubt, but it’s a story I’ve been thinking of for quite some time. I’m not exactly sure where it’s going to go yet, but everyone must start somewhere.
So there you have it, my future hopes and dreams. I was reluctant to write this as sharing it meant I’d have to follow through, but I’ve done it now, so no going back.
The biggest drawback of all this is that I cannot share my stories here as all the competitions want unpublished stories. I itch to let you read them, but for now I’ll have to leave them to your imagination.
So now you know, probably more than my own family, where my writing is going. I will continue to blog here and read and enjoy your posts and comments as much as I always have. This blog has been a life saver for me, and now it has brought me to a new path in life.
I look forward to travelling it with you all.