Today as I type this I am smiling a secret smile. As I cook the family dinner, I smile. As I tidy up or listen to my crew arguing, I smile.
No one sees my smile. Nor do they see me look at the clock regularly. On occasions, the secret smile breaks out, and for a moment is there for all to see, before I quickly manage to hide it once more.
What is the reason for this secret happiness you ask?
What have we planned?
Well that would be telling. Suffice to say there will be a lot of laughing, definitely some fancy eating, and maybe even some drinking!
As I sit here tonight I think how very lucky I am to have the fantastic friends I have in my life.
Over the years I have had friends who shared my sadness when my Dad became sick and died. They consoled me and cared for me, and helped me sit my exams a few weeks later.
Then I married and moved away, but thankfully I met new friends. Friends who shared my life during the difficult, lonely days of early motherhood. Who were there to wait with me, when family members became sick, and celebrate when they recovered. Friends who have shared the ups and downs of everyday life, over the past many years.
These were the friends who also shared the desperate sadness of the past year with me. Who texted me day and night to let me know they were there, and who have genuinely felt some of my grief.
Tomorrow night, these same friends will be by my side once more. We have shared enough sadness. Tomorrow night we will share a much anticipated night of laughter, fun and maybe even song. We will forget about our everyday troubles, and we will celebrate.
We will celebrate friendship. We may even celebrate it more than once!
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