Some days I feel it brewing.
A nagging, ever present thought or feeling I can’t shake off.
As I sit to write I stare at the empty screen before me.
What will I write today?
I play with the keys and eventually I feel my fingers begin to type.
Each sentence is ended by, delete, delete, delete.
Slowly very slowly I feel it, my post taking form.
Writing means I now have words for those feelings I had earlier.
Sometimes as I write, I laugh out loud.
On other days I write and tears fall unchecked.
The minutes fly by but inevitably I begin to step out of the post, back to reality.
I pause and wonder what I have written, and how does it read?
Does it make any sense at all?
As I re read it I wonder how it will end?
What was I trying to say? Is there a point to it.
How will it finish?
Reading back I revist my original mood,
and as I do so it all becomes clear.
I now know exactly how this post will end.
With that final full stop I feel relaxed, calm.
Those feelings from earlier no longer buzzing around.
They now have a new home, “My thoughts on a page”.
When I have my post polished and decorated,
all that is left to do is to press publish.
My post is now public, and I wait and I wonder.
Will anyone like it?
***** I write most days, and luckily quite a number of you read what I write. However on occasions I write a post that strikes a chord. It may be a humorous post, or one which was difficult to write, and I watch it’s popularity soar compared to a more usual day.
Sometimes it is rated by a more than usual number of wordpress “likes”, other times by sharing on facebook. Even after a year of blogging I could never finish a post and know how it will do.
However the one thing common to every post I’ve ever written which was popular, bar one, is the depth of emotion I have felt while writing it.
Maybe there is a lesson to be learned there, I’m not sure. What ever the reason for a posts success, I do know, that when it happens I shake my head and smile, usually thinking to myself “Who would have thought it?”.