Some days I feel it brewing.
A nagging, ever present thought or feeling I can’t shake off.
As I sit to write I stare at the empty screen before me.
What will I write today?
I play with the keys and eventually I feel my fingers begin to type.
Each sentence is ended by, delete, delete, delete.
Slowly very slowly I feel it, my post taking form.
As I begin to write, my fingers struggle to keep up with my thoughts.
It is as if a door was suddenly opened wide,
and everything held behind it is visible.
Writing means I now have words for those feelings I had earlier.
Sometimes as I write, I laugh out loud.
On other days I write and tears fall unchecked.
The minutes fly by but inevitably I begin to step out of the post, back to reality.
I pause and wonder what I have written, and how does it read?
Does it make any sense at all?
As I re read it I wonder how it will end?
What was I trying to say? Is there a point to it.
How will it finish?
Reading back I revist my original mood,
and as I do so it all becomes clear.
I now know exactly how this post will end.
Once again my thoughts take flight.
Fingers flying I am re invigorated,
and at last, there it is, the final sentence. Finished.
With that final full stop I feel relaxed, calm.
Those feelings from earlier no longer buzzing around.
They now have a new home, “My thoughts on a page”.
When I have my post polished and decorated,
all that is left to do is to press publish.
My post is now public, and I wait and I wonder.
Will anyone like it?
***** I write most days, and luckily quite a number of you read what I write. However on occasions I write a post that strikes a chord. It may be a humorous post, or one which was difficult to write, and I watch it’s popularity soar compared to a more usual day.
Sometimes it is rated by a more than usual number of wordpress “likes”, other times by sharing on facebook. Even after a year of blogging I could never finish a post and know how it will do.
However the one thing common to every post I’ve ever written which was popular, bar one, is the depth of emotion I have felt while writing it.
Maybe there is a lesson to be learned there, I’m not sure. What ever the reason for a posts success, I do know, that when it happens I shake my head and smile, usually thinking to myself “Who would have thought it?”.
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My thoughts on a page. 
“However the one thing common to every post I’ve ever written which was popular, bar one, is the depth of emotion I have felt while writing it.”
I have noticed that as well.
Yes there are some of your posts I instantly recall, and it is those ones.
Good description of that creative experience.
Thank you. I’m sure it’s common to a lot of us bloggers.
I get exactly what you are saying, sometimes it shocks the hell out of me why one post suddenly becomes popular and why others, that I may favour more, may be overlooked entirely. I sometimes even feel sorry for the posts that just sit there with hardly anyone reading them 🙂
I’ve been thinking of your comment about feeling sorry that some of your good posts were barely read. I may do something on my blog to feature them…. Great idea. I’ll think it through.
You have so wonderfully described how writing is a process of discovery. I often have a well-laid plan on how a particular post is going to play out. And then, when I go back and read the final copy before hitting the publish button, I more often than not find that I have veered off the path. And it couldn’t possibly feel any better, that process of discovery. As you say, it is not always a journey filled with laughter and joy. But, it is always, always worthwhile. Thanks for a wonderful message. I live for those emotions that pour forth when I write. It takes a lot of courage to venture into the unknown depths, but the rewards are definitely worth the risk. Best wishes for an inspired day 😉
Thanks a million. Blogging or even writing in general, leaves us all vulnerable. We write and then it is up to others to give us the feed back we look for. Sometimes it can be difficult when our writing is either unheard or poorly received.
However as you say, it is always worth the risk.
I always say, I write because I can’t not!
Whether a post is popular or not they remain your thoughts. 🙂
Yes and by writing them they are no longer “secret”, by writing them we no longer own them exclusively.
In a way writing frees them, but it can leave us exposed.
Definitely.
oh i so feel the same, tric. it’s always a bit of a wonder to me, what is popular and what is not, but i think you are right about the personal touch/emotion involved, it really seems to reach people on a different level.
Yes. Although it is not for everyone. I look at some blogs and I feel no soul. Yet they are popular.
Funny, I have had the opposite experience. My one and only “Freshly Pressed” was for a post that I popped out with barely a thought. I felt that it was sort of glib and not particularly moving. The ones that still make me cry have sometimes had only 10 hits ever. Go figure!
Ah I did say “bar one”. In fact like you one of my most successful posts was written in minutes and posted.
It was called “hello, I’ve posted. Is anyone out there?”.
But as a rule the most successful ones are a bit more heartfelt or filled with humour than other posts.
Tric, I had only been wondering over the last few days how you actually write such a great and varied posts. Thanks for the insight that confirms what I suspected. Passion and humility!!
Not sure about the humility!
My mind is forever buzzing and I do find life and human behavior very interesting, so as a rule topics are easily come by.
Thanks for the compliment though. Really glad you enjoy reading.
Not for you to say about the humility, surely!
I would have thought it! Your writing is amazing.;)
Aw thanks Tia. I hope all is well in your world. When you do write I love reading.
It’s always interesting to see what posts will connect more with others. That’s one of the things I love about blogging,how you “hook” different people on different days.No two days are the same just like no two posts are the same.
I love it too. It is both a challenge and a release. Every time I post I feel happy, regardless of readers, but when others read or comment I must say I am thrilled even after a year.
My emotional and more personal posts are better received than the rest, but unfortunately I have difficulties opening up to the world.. We all just want that connection. But I’m getting there, slowly. :o)
I know what you mean, but I am the opposite online. In real life I am quite a closed person except among my close friends and husband, but give me a laptop and I am like someone with too much drink on board!
In person, I’m a real chatterbox, but I still find it strange to share my thoughts online. I can’t imagine you as closed at all. I always picture you as the life and soul of the party!
Ha I can give it socks alright but as regards my life and feelings I’m quite reserved.. I think.